Saturday, December 26, 2020


Aprons are done and we have discovered that all the hems are crooked. We don't care. They are Eden's famous asymmetric aprons and they are beautiful.

Dinner yesterday. Popovers, ****beautiful salad***,  cauliflower pie, stuffed squash. and a French thing with caramelized onions, anchovies and olives. 

I won't be eating again this year. 

She leaves in a few days. We are currently watching Bridgerton, a trashy bodice ripper with some serious eye candy, gorgeous sets and questionable fantastic wigs. And white and Black people all mixed together. for example, the queen is Black and her ladies in waiting are Black and asian. Yeah! Oh and naked sex scenes, lots of them. Apparently we can now watch soft porn whenever. 

Friday, December 18, 2020


Two of my favorite beings.

We fast approach the Solstice and an end to this very terrible terrible year. 

“To Know the Dark"

To go in the dark with a light is to know the light.
To know the dark, go dark. Go without sight,
and find that the dark, too, blooms and sings,
and is traveled by dark feet and dark wings.”

                         -Wendell Berry

We are still working away but almost half-way there. Maybe Eden will still be here for Christmas. Last night we had Korean pancakes-fermented rice, beans and kimchee. Sooooo delicious. And cauliflower mushrooms. A friend of hers brought us homemade kim chee. I will go back to my tiny menu of steamed veggies and grains and oatmeal after she leaves. 

It's raining and cold here so=muddy dog. He gets so much attention and kisses from Eden. We hosted a neighbor's puppy yesterday for a few hours. She sat on Eden's lap the whole time. It's so dear to see my child be so tender to animals. 

Sweet girls. 

Friday, December 11, 2020


Waiting for Eden to come home from a (distant) visit with a friend. We'll have waffles and pear/blueberry compote for breakfast and then back to the salt mines, er, sewing machines. Selfishly, I don't want us to ever finish because when we're done, she'll leave. :-(. My beautiful children. This visit has been so enjoyable and fun and full of laughing, podcasts, great food and conversations. How did I get so lucky? She has heard me tell my story of her birth many times but while I am working from home, she hears my conversations with clients and I continue to talk about her birth. Crazy parents having their baby in their bedroom, back in 1975. Talked the doc into coming over, his first ever home birth (!). He showed up with his little black bag. I think he put gloves on. She came so fast, he had barely arrived when she was born.  My fast furious girl with the bright mind and nervous energy. Artist, cook, goofy sense of humor, kind, self deprecating. 

I love her always.

Sunday, December 06, 2020

 My new beautiful tattoo-two koi and a yin/yang symbol.

My daughter Eden doing what she does so well. Soooooo happy to have her here in my house. We make each other laugh, the kind of laugh when you cry and your nose runs laugh. 

Friday, December 04, 2020


 Dear ones,

Kenny lives two doors down and I've mentioned him here before. When I first moved in, he announced that he was gay and was living with AIDS. Since then he's had a heart attack and so he now has a pacemaker. He has two big goofy dogs who are very well behaved. Very. Well. Behaved. Much better than Felix. Since the pandemic began, he's become my gay husband, 

For the last two days, he has decorated my house with Christmas lights. Every year when my kids were small they wanted lights on the house. I was always too tired or busy. Now my house is cheerfully lit up. I'm sitting on my meditation cushion right now looking out the window at them. Seattle gets very dark very early this time of year. Now I can be one of those houses shining in the night. Because of Kenny.

Kindness comes in all forms, doesn't it?